Let’s face it. It’s so much easier to be someone else than yourself. Especially in ministry. Doing and following what everyone else doing - especially the ones that seem successful. All their music, programs, activities, events, and even series of sermons.
Sometimes you’re so busy and occupied in copying, imitating and following others that you forget & forfeit your originality.
Instead of daring to find your voice, you opt out and imitate the voice of others who have found their voice. Instead of commanding attention by “being yourself”, you whine and cry out for attention by attempting to be “like someone else”.
Finding yourself and being yourself is hard work. It takes time. It requires you to think, ponder, reflect, and change.
So, instead of doing the hard work of finding yourself, you take the easy way out. You copy. You imitate.
But here’s the profound truth.
At the core, envy is an aching dissatisfaction with who you are, and who you are not.
If you think about it, most of the people you are “imitating or emulating” - the supposed iconic figures of success in ministry - have done the hard work of finding themselves. They took the time to pray, search the scriptures, seek counsel, quietly meditate and faithfully keep a journal to figure out who they were and who they weren’t.
They have passed the hurdles of dissatisfaction by leaping with the spirit of gratitude for being a unique masterpiece that is “fearfully & wonderfully” made by God Himself.
They have stopped comparing themselves to others because they found out that they couldn’t be compared. They were the Only Ones who could do what they could only do.
They also found out that it’s so much better to be original than to imitate.
There is a deep longing in our hearts to discover our unique, true and original self. Freedom reigns when we finally and ultimately find who we were meant to be. But the question is how we find our original self?
The answer is simple.
You need to make peace with parts of true self you have been hiding for most days of your life. The parts of you that you wished were different.
The part of you that you have been hiding & wished were different - are the truest parts of you. You need to embrace that truth about yourself.
If we don’t learn to appreciate even the undesirable parts of ourselves (or so we think), we inadvertently displease the One who created us with those parts. We may even diminish the image of God in us by being ashamed of those parts.
You have (or don’t have) that voice, that figure, that talent, or that idiosyncrasy for a specific reason. There’s is a purpose for all that you are and are not!
Learning to be deeply grateful for who you are is the first step toward originality and freedom!
And the 2nd step is to connect with the One who Originated you!
Spend a lot of time in the presence of God. Ask Him to reveal His plan for your life. More than anything else, God wants to restore in you His original masterpiece.
Allow God to chip away everything that isn’t you.
So that the real you will emerge radiantly with the glory that God designed for you to shine in this darkened world.
To be nobody-but-yourself in a world which is doing its best, night and day, to make you like everybody else - means to fight the hardest battle which any human being can fight; and never stop fighting!